most likely will be poetry or quotes i like
sometimes, i experience the strangest phenomenon. i feel a sense of longing and nostalgia for something i was never apart of. i feel it for something to write home about by the get up kids. mostly, though, i feel it for my so-called life , a short-lived 90s show. the concept and feel of the show is in the vein of freaks and geeks , another show that was cancelled way before its time. my so-called life follows angela chase, and her high school life. she is obsessed with jordan catalano, the boy we all know things will never work out with, but we really really really want it to anyways. plus, it's full of angst and songs by the cranberries. angela chase is played by (then unknown) claire danes - who was actually chosen over alicia silverstone. the creators felt alicia silverstone was too pretty to not end up subverting the message and tone of the show. i have to agree. the characters were so cool. to quote an article by the guardian... "MSCL's clothes and music were so inextricable from its characters that fans used both to express their connection to the show. they wore doc martens and listened to the lemonheads..." and that's something that sticks today. every cool kid since the 90s has seen my so-called life. and there's something that sticks. it feels real, and it doesn't feel like the creators were pandering to you. it wasn't until years later when buffy the vampire slayer aired that network television would give the same feel, albeit buffy was a bit more "out there" than MSCL. angela's struggle to find herself and be herself is something i can relate to. "'most stories begin with an old order crumbling because some unexpected force has exerted itself,' holzman says, via email, 'that, for me, was rayanne.' angela's newly acquired friendships with rayanne graff (aj langer) and rickie vasquez (wilson cruz) embodied her future, while her ex-best friend sharon cherski (devon odessa) personified her past" (the guardian). i feel like we all struggle with creating ourselves and molding who we want to be while trying to remember who we used to be.
my so-called life is never going to be a show i recommend to people. because it's not for everybody. i am a firm believer in that if you find it, you're meant to see it.